Contemplations
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fanciful_museChanges in a person's life can happen rather quickly if one is open to them, including changes in perception and outlook.
I unhid the entry on the Solstice Eclipse, because the information on it is very pertinent to what is happening with me, right now. They should've bolded the portion about communication happening in the waning days, because it is very critical and one must take baby steps to make it right.
This time of year is traditionally one of giving, but it can also be one of cleansing, forgiveness, and new beginnings. I feel as though I am experiencing all of it, and it is a wonder to me as it unfolds.
I am a faulted person, just like anyone else. I strive to identify and work on my faults, and I've found fault in myself over the past few days that has bothered me a great deal. In my effort to do what's right, to fight for everyone's right to be unabused and happy, I have left out one important factor in the formula: Forgiveness.
Sometimes it isn't easy to forgive. We as human beings tend to hang onto wrongs done, whether real or perceived. It takes a lot of strength to examine the things we hang onto and decide whether hanging onto them is really worth it, or if doing so hurts ourselves and those we love.
I have been blessed by someone who has let go things I thought they'd hang onto, and has given me the chance to prove that I, too, am forgiving, and that I truly know how to express love. This is not an easy process and I hope the person involved can also find their way to pay me the grace of forgiveness.
I have a list of philosophy at the top of this journal, and it is there probably more for my benefit than anyone else's. These are things I've learned in the journey of my life, that can lead to self-happiness as well as bringing happiness to others. I must never forget that I have to make things right inside of myself before I can hope to bring anything to anyone else.
There are eyes who will read this and wonder if it's really true. Doors were opened to me on the Eclipse, that not only revealed things to me about others, but also revealed things to me about myself, about my motivations, my desires, where I want to go in this life, and what I want to bring to the world in general. It's caused a major shift inside of me and is leading to a great deal of healing on all levels of my existence.
When the Gods talk, I listen, even if I don't always comprehend what it is They want of me or what They bring to me. I feel I've come far enough in my life that I've developed some sense of self-preservation, so no, I am not as gullible as I used to be - but at the same time, I have tended to go too far in the other direction. Such is the dilemma of an adult child of alcoholics: We tend to deal in extremes of one kind or another. It has been a lifelong process (and still is) learning how to keep that from happening.
I am being presented with a lot of "information" from the various planes of my existence, and it's going to be a long process to listen, learn, and integrate. I am going to make mistakes along the way. I am hoping those who love me will understand that my basic motivation is one of kindness, love, and generosity, so if I slip up, don't hold my feet to the fire. Please remember that I am just human.
I unhid the entry on the Solstice Eclipse, because the information on it is very pertinent to what is happening with me, right now. They should've bolded the portion about communication happening in the waning days, because it is very critical and one must take baby steps to make it right.
This time of year is traditionally one of giving, but it can also be one of cleansing, forgiveness, and new beginnings. I feel as though I am experiencing all of it, and it is a wonder to me as it unfolds.
I am a faulted person, just like anyone else. I strive to identify and work on my faults, and I've found fault in myself over the past few days that has bothered me a great deal. In my effort to do what's right, to fight for everyone's right to be unabused and happy, I have left out one important factor in the formula: Forgiveness.
Sometimes it isn't easy to forgive. We as human beings tend to hang onto wrongs done, whether real or perceived. It takes a lot of strength to examine the things we hang onto and decide whether hanging onto them is really worth it, or if doing so hurts ourselves and those we love.
I have been blessed by someone who has let go things I thought they'd hang onto, and has given me the chance to prove that I, too, am forgiving, and that I truly know how to express love. This is not an easy process and I hope the person involved can also find their way to pay me the grace of forgiveness.
I have a list of philosophy at the top of this journal, and it is there probably more for my benefit than anyone else's. These are things I've learned in the journey of my life, that can lead to self-happiness as well as bringing happiness to others. I must never forget that I have to make things right inside of myself before I can hope to bring anything to anyone else.
There are eyes who will read this and wonder if it's really true. Doors were opened to me on the Eclipse, that not only revealed things to me about others, but also revealed things to me about myself, about my motivations, my desires, where I want to go in this life, and what I want to bring to the world in general. It's caused a major shift inside of me and is leading to a great deal of healing on all levels of my existence.
When the Gods talk, I listen, even if I don't always comprehend what it is They want of me or what They bring to me. I feel I've come far enough in my life that I've developed some sense of self-preservation, so no, I am not as gullible as I used to be - but at the same time, I have tended to go too far in the other direction. Such is the dilemma of an adult child of alcoholics: We tend to deal in extremes of one kind or another. It has been a lifelong process (and still is) learning how to keep that from happening.
I am being presented with a lot of "information" from the various planes of my existence, and it's going to be a long process to listen, learn, and integrate. I am going to make mistakes along the way. I am hoping those who love me will understand that my basic motivation is one of kindness, love, and generosity, so if I slip up, don't hold my feet to the fire. Please remember that I am just human.
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Date: 12/26/10 02:57 am (UTC)I wrote that to another friend (also in the Los Angeles area), but I find that today, it's appropriate in this comment as well. When dealing with or conversing with those powers that be, it's never a simple matter of saying one thing and thinking another. They always know the truth in your heart.
I think that's one of the reasons I've held out hope that those who I once held dear might ask for forgiveness or make peace. To ask for absolution means that in their heart they mean they want it. It doesn't mean I won't give it, but it won't be offered blindly.
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Date: 12/26/10 05:28 pm (UTC)